December 3, 2009:  Just do the next thing

 Change your thoughts and you change your life.  This is Louise Hay’s mantra.  I found Louise Hay nearly 3 years ago.  I was on a personal retreat and in a bookstore her face was staring at me and I was taken in.  At that point in my life I believed I had totally tapped out therapy…no more rocks to look under and Louise suggested that I could re program my brain which sounded utterly reasonable to me.

 Louise is also the Queen Mother of affirmations which up to that point I thought were rather too simplistic or something but I was up against an emotional wall and ready to try anything.  So I began my brain reprogramming and one of my first affirmations was “I release all fear and know that I’m am safe in the Universe.”  I must have said this hundreds of times.  Like a soldier in a fox hole waiting for a bomb to drop and saying the Hail Mary, I said this literally night and day for days on end and I began to see results.  I was SOLD.  Louise, please adopt me and take me to your home.  I will do your laundry.

 Louise also says that all you have to do is “the next thing”.  All you have to do is what is right in front of you.  So when I become overwhelmed with life which doesn’t take much- checking email and making 2 business calls, and today having the Walgreens tell me that my insurance had been cut off can easily push me to the edge – and then I begin thinking of what I will be doing or should be doing, or should I sign another lease or how am I going to support myself a year from now, I remember.  Just do the next thing.

 I do believe that my life can and will unfold for me in amazing ways if I can just get out of my own way.

 Looking back on my life everything looks finely orchestrated with the right people the right jobs, the right connections all at the right time.  Now that I have the knowledge base that shows me how this is truly my creation and how things really work, why would I stop believing at this point?

The Universe has my back.  I can so easily forget or doubt that.

 Doing this blog at one time seemed overwhelming to me.  I’m technophobic for God’s sake.  I’m afraid of my laptop and secretly think it stays on “stand by” plotting against me, figuring out how it can totally piss me off and reduce me to impotence as a human being.

 And I want to do a blog?  How the hell is that going to happen?

 But then dear Louise is in my mind saying, “just do the next thing” and so I did.  I talked with my village who didn’t think I was nuts, we played with names, I did a google search, I began writing.  All of this was over a span of weeks, just doing the next thing when it felt right, listening internally for timing, not pushing.

I did the next thing and the blog is up and I’m enjoying it as well.  It’s given me a way to focus more clearly and that helps the creative process.  I’m thrilled if anyone finds this even remotely interesting or even helpful.  It’s helping me.

 With Love, Connie