December 12 2010:  I’m in the Vortex so where’s my stuff?

I’ve been feeling really good lately.  Better and better and consistently good, not the roller coaster of the past.  I’m actually training my mind to stay in the good feeling places…something our school system neglected to teach us.

Abraham (see side panel) says that when we are feeling really good consistently then we can attract that which we are wanting, our dreams can be fulfilled.  So, what’s with that I’ve asked myself?  I haven’t ever felt this good since I was a child…on a good day… and my bank account is fine but not bulging so I can book that camel trek from National Geographic or the around the world cruise from Princess.

I had a “bite” with lauching a new career which is still in the works but no cash flowing…yet.  I’m ever positive and I believe it will happen after I get back from New Zealand.  I guess I did manifest that trip/cruise to New Zealand but I don’t know if that really counts because I already had the cash in my account.  Is that a for real manifestation?  Yes.

So, the BIG dreams have not unfolded but jesus, I’ve only been feeling really great for the past three months.  In divine time I doubt that’s worth talking about.  And then there’s the thing when I wake up in the morning and just bask in this space of utter bliss.  I write, listen to Abraham, drink coffee and look out of my 8th floor windows in awe that I can even do this.  Sit like there was no tomorrow and marinade in these wonderful feelings day after day.  I never thought I could feel this good and that is quite a manifestation as I see it on paper.  Quite something.

And as I think about it, I think that’s worth a few weeks of enjoying before my life gets more busy which it inevitably will.  So I’m enjoying this luxurious time of wallowing in my own manifested good feelings.  In a world where how hard we work and how much money is coming in and what one can measure, that has taken me some time to deem my just plain feeling better than I have in my life something worth some applause.  There was a time in the not so distant past when I considered not being here because I couldn’t find the feelings I’m having regularly now.

Abraham says we want stuff because we believe in the having of it, money, partner, whatever, we will feel better.  But what we really want is to feel love, to be love.  And then the rest will follow.  Well I’m feeling the love and I’ve decided it’s a good place to stop, take a rest, soak it in, expand it to more and more and more.  I can ride a camel but if I’m not feeling joy then what is it worth? 

I can wait for my stuff.  I have joy.  I have the feeling of being connected to the bigger part of me that is Source energy.  I have a LOT!

With love, Connie