June 17, 2010:  Home in the Woods

I had no idea I needed a vacation until I’ve been in Wisconsin’s north woods for 5 days.  I mean in Milwaukee, I don’t have to get up to work every day and my work has been feeling as good as I can and taking the next bounce/step.  I had not been feeling all that hot for several days prior to coming here.

There is something so soothing about being in nature.  The north woods in magic.  The energy is so non resistent.  It is Source energy pure and non contrasting commin acha.  With each passing day I feel more and more at one with everything around me.  My senses are heighted this year and I’m more tuned into self.  I can really tell the difference in the me of previous years and the me now in the north woods.  I’m happy to report that I want to do absolutely nothing except listen moment to moment for what I’m wanting…no plans allowed…just what do I feel like doing now and then what do I feel like doing now.  And my days are just opening easily and I feel more and more relaxed with me.  Just waking down the road behind our cottage in the evening is magic.  The night air is cool and yet has that velvety smell of pine.  The sky is so clear with no city lights  The setting sun is stunningly pink and purple and violet against the lake.

I went out to the dock yesterday morning and there were a pair of loons not 20 feet away from me.  That is a first.  I’m enjoying a paddle boat also.  Dudie, bff dog, and I get into the boat and paddle all over the lake.  There is a resident Bald Eagle directly opposite us across the lake.  I have an ongoing relationship with her.  I believe it is a her because of her immense size and females are larger.  I sent her my thoughts before I came and asked her to “play” with me.  This afternoon we were over by her tree and I looked through the binoculars to see if there was a nest and there it was.  The size of it took my breath away and then there She was circling overhead.  She circled over us and I waved, then she flew behind the trees only to come back and circle us again.  She repeated that four times.  The next time I saw her she was so far overhead she looked tiny and I couldn’t believe how far up she was!  2,000 feet perhaps.

In earlier years I have asked her for feathers and then have gone and gotten them by her tree.  I keep them to smudge with.  I’ll likely ask her again but the timing and asking needs to come from within.

It’s so easy to feel Source all around me up here.  The energy is so dense and loving and peaceful.  Makes me consider a move.  Not necessarily here but out of the city, especially a city that is so racially divided.  I did my time on the front lines of that pain.  I’m ready to talk to eagles now.  My meditations up here are more expansive and rather that relaxing and focusing on “nothing” to empty my mind, I’m focusing on All That Is to focus my mind.  It’s words but I feel a shift to abundance rather than emptiness and it feels very much better.

In letting go to Source here in Northern Wisconsin I feel caught in the arms of my Source.  I’m held securely.  I can let go.  There is so little contrast here to distract me from feeling held.  And I like the idea of held securely as well.  I’ve never felt so safe and the better I feel the better I feel and I also know that my future is assured.

Ta ta for now.  With love, Connie