April 23rd, 2010:  Keep the Faith

I saw a friend for lunch whom I had not seen for several weeks.  She remarked on how good I looked and how well I’m doing.  I am doing well. 

You know the most challenging thing for me is just to keep believing in what I’ve believed all during this writing…that I create my own reality and it’s not by doing anything special, it’s by knowing what I want and by feeling good and allowing the Universe to deliver it to me.  I don’t have to do anything but feel good in the knowing that All Is Well.

Because most of our culture believes that one must work hard to “achieve” what we want this hasn’t been an easy thing to do for me.  But I’ve learned and am learning so much that we don’t have to do anything and that life is supposed to be fun.  Also that when we ask it is given.   Now is the time of awakening, of remembering who we truly are, Source energy in physical bodies who came here to create and expand into new places and to have a good time doing it.

We will create what we believe.  Our beliefs are only things we keep telling ourselves over and over and our beliefs create our reality.

So for the past months I’ve been focusing on believing…believing that I’m worthy even without a job, believing that I can receive what I’m wanting by feeling better and better and that the Universe will bring me what I’m wanting when the time is right.  It always has and when I’m actually becoming more deliberate about it , why would it be any different now?

Not working in this culture is difficult.  It’s difficult to feel worthy and not be “doing”.  But I’m getting there.  Someone asked me the other day, “What are you doing?”  And for the first time in a long time I said “I’m having a good time waiting to see what will come up next?”  And I meant it.  Good for me.

I had an appointment with my accountant yesterday that I had not been exactly looking forward to.  I have been supporting myself since this past November when my golden parachute hit the ground.  But I found out that my portfolio had actually grown overall even with the payments to me for support.  Thanks, Universe.

Truly, All is Well.  With Love, Connie