February 6th,  2011:

I keep thinking about this young man I was listening to on an Abraham (see side panel) CD from their seminar in Kansas City, KS, last September.  When Abraham speaks with audiences, they field questions about anything.  They always say that nothing is off limits so people have the opportunity to go on stage and ask a question and talk directly with infinite intelligence.  I’m not going to go into the story of Jerry and Esther Hicks and their journey with Abraham but it is worth going on their website or YouTube to get more information.

So, anyway, back to the young man on stage.  He could barely get his question out and initially had such a hard time because he was crying and even snorted into the microphone.  The gist of his question was that he knows that his thoughts create his reality but he wrestles with his thoughts so much because he has so many negative feelings about himself and he gets so utterly frustrated with himself because he gets so tangled up with himself and then believes that he will not be able to create anything worthwhile because of his war with himself.  He asked for Abraham’s input.

I so got him.  Before this point in my life I was where he is most of the time and listening to him I felt tears on my face that sprang without my knowing.  I’m sure many felt this way.

Of course Abraham wanted to soothe him into a better feeling place and I certainly wanted to go along for the ride as well.  They told him that he had great desire for one so young as evident in his sensitivity to his feelings and his surroundings.  They told him that his larger self, his Source energy, was much bigger than his struggle with himself and he would go on to create great things for himself.  His job at this point was just trying to relax with himself and know he was on the right track and well ahead of his peers.

Hearing that was very affirming for me.  I could so see myself in this young man.  My 20’s were very difficult because with my very strong emotions I just thought there was something deeply wrong with me.  I wished I had had Abraham telling me that my emotions are my guidance.  Period.  They do not mean anything other than your physical vibrations are not in line with your Source energy vibrations and that causes somewhat of a split in your energy.  Period again.  Instead of feeling the period I built a whole story around my woundedness that was a strong belief for years.

But if Abraham had been there for me in my 20’s I would not have had the life I have had so all is well and I do believe everything is running perfectly.

But hearing Abraham talking to this young man in such a loving reassuring way was also for me.  There were many times, and still are moments, when my doubts rise to the surface and I want to call out and be reassured that I’m not fucking anything up with my feeling of going in circles with one foot nailed to the floor.  And, looking back and seeing my accomplishments despite my belief in my wounded self and not knowing that the wound was self inflicted, only reinforces the knowing of my strength now.

Knowing that my Source and my life movement are so much stronger than my puny, by comparison, mind fucks scratched an itch in me that needed attention.

Thank you, Abraham.

With Love, Connie

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