September 30, 2010:  Got Fame?

Iowa City, anyone?  I’m here and on my way home today.  It feels exhilarating after being gone for over three weeks on my own outback quest and now returning with new skin.

I wanted to share something with you.  The other night I happened to catch a documentary on HBO.  In it Adreinne (sp), the wonderful Vince on Entourage, was doing a story on this young paparazzi, 14 year old Austin.  And as the story developed, Austin even began being pursued by the paparazzi and was becoming famous and so Adrienne began discussing fame.  Many people want to be famous or pursue someone famous to get a piece of it.

It was a very good piece and I thought of the need for people to touch fame.  The big ah-ah for me came when Adrienne was discussing fame with a professor and the idea was presented that people have a basic desire to be acknowledged.  And it appears to me that as our society becomes more and more disconnected that this desire to become acknowledged is heightened.

When I was much younger I remember hearing from somewhere that to be human is to have an emptiness, a hole which can never be filled, and that is just the way it is.

I am very happy to announce that as I Know that I am Source Energy (see my side panels on Jerry and Esther Hicks) and have learned to feel better and better through meditation and through many of the things I have discussed here that I have securely anchored to that Source Energy within me and I do not have that hole within anymore.  I feel whole.  I am whole.  Source and I are the same…that is true for all of us.  I’m not religious but I’m a fan of Jesus.  He said “The kingdom of God is within”.  He’s on to something there.  Well the guy did study in India for a lot of years.

One of my intentions on this trip was to get more in touch with my own Source…and I did that.  I feel completely acknowledged by my Source and the idea of chasing after someone “famous” seems rather odd.  Well, it always did but now I really get the need but I also get why I don’t feel the need.  I feel acknowledged, deeply acknowledged.

Now if Adrienne were in the lobby of the Country Inn where I’m staying I might want to saunter on down and tell him I loved his documentary and he really is cute!

I can’t wait to see my bff wonder dog.  I mess him the most….with love, Connie

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