June 14, 2010:   The Happy Biker

I just came back from the road, bugs in my teeth.  I purposefully shunned the use of my helmet this ONE time because I swear I needed to feel the wind in my hair…and I did.  This two lane forest road… put the bike into 5th gear and just let the wind slam me for awhile and I feel alive!  On my way home it began to rain and I had my  helmet on and just felt happy dodging the drops.

When I returned to the cottage I discovered Dudie, my bff dog, was having a growling stand off with some grey fur on the ground and I frantically went over to see and there was this small grey squirrel face down doing nothing but kind of pushing itself along on its stomach head first.  Dudie, my fierce Bichon/Lhasa hunter was kind of wanting to play and wasn’t getting the response he had hoped for.  I can’t imagine that he had actually caught a squirrel.  He’s not the killer Teddy Bear.  I picked him up and brought him in but now every time he wants to go out he will just be sucked to that same spot.  I wonder if the squirrel was playing at being half dead?  Ya think?  I want to feel sorry for the squirrel and I must remember that we humans have a very warped view of death…like it is something horrible, not the leap into the wonderful expansion of everything we have lived and become all in one fell swoop.  People who have lived near death experiences don’t want to come back it is so wonderful except that they feel something undone or that they are needed still and so they return.  But animals come and go and come and go.  It’s no big deal.  They like new bodies!

I love this country in the north woods.  It just smells like pine velvet.  I woke feeling rather wobbly and then I could feel myself taking the bounce.  With the contrast I was feeling the past few days I couldn’t seem to take the bounce being called forth with the expansion I had taken.  I felt stuck in contrast and it was not the appreciative experience that Abraham (see side panel) would like me to have.  When we feel anything negative, we can know that we have in that moment that we have already asked to feel better and the greater non physical piece of us has aready become that better feeling aspect but we feel crumby because we haven’t taken the bounce yet.

I didn’t know how or where to bounce.  This morning I got it.  My bounce feels like an inner bounce this time.  I was being called to take an inner bounce…go inside and expand more deeply withing.  It was not an outward expansion like I usually feel but going more inside.  So I did that.  Sinking, and relaxing down and then the bells rang for me.  I took the bounce and could become the happy biker.

Now I want to integrate this inner bounce a bit more because I can feel the newness of it…like an energy wave I haven’t felt before…a new muscle to learn how to use.  It does involve a letting go of putting so much importance on physical reality.  It’s just not as important as its cracked up to be.  Most of our “selves” are non physical and reside in non physical and yet we seem to think that our physical reality is the be all and end all. 

Our perceptions of physical reality are changing at a macro level however.  Look at the movies that are coming around.  The Twilight series, Harry Potter, Avatar.  We are beginning to get it and can’t seem to get enough.  There is more here than was cracked up to be!  Amen to that.

Signing off from the north woods with love, Connie

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