May 26th, 2010:  No Other Gods

I remember so much Bible thumping from my growing up in Kansas.  From what I learned there were only a very few people that were NOT going to hell and those few people had one foot on a banana peel.  Some wise peace of me didn’t buy it and felt guilty for that but I thought even if I did buy it, the odds weren’t good even to be one of the very few.

From the 10 Commandments stuff I really didn’t get the “thou shalt have no other gods befoe me.”  What did that mean?  There were imposter gods out there?  Then from the Kansas thumpers I gathered it meant liking anything more that God.  To me,that meant anything from cheeseburgers to those silver machines in Las Vegas, the main terminal to hell.  And then that was confusing because from my kid point of view God wasn’t very likeble.  What had he ever done for me?  He certainly didn’t talk to me plus all I heard from the thumping was how disgusted he was with me.  I was a piece of crap just waiting for my turn in the hand basket.  How do I love someone who thinks I’m a worm?  That was in one of the hymns…something about “for such a worm as I” was in there.  I didn’t forget that one.

Needless to say I put that version of God down as soon as I had enough courage to say “no” to the whole deal, which wasn’t soon enough, and walk away.  Later I would find my own version and put that together piece by piece into something that made sense and nourished my soul rather than beat it to death.  I also discovered the concept of spiritual abuse which, of course, made total sense to me having been an abusee.

Now back to the no other gods thing.  Abraham says (see side panel) says that the most important relationship I have is between me and me.  That is between the physical me and the energetic, vibrational me, which is the bigger part of me, the God force part of me.  When these me’s are in agreement then I feel wonderful and when they don’t agree, I feel negative emotion. 

For example, if I feel badly because I’m not employed the reason I feel badly is because the bigger, God force part of me is not seeing me in the same light as the physical me has judged me.  We are not in agreement.  If I feel bad because I’m pissed off at someone who treated me badly then the physical me is not in agreement with the energetic me who sees whoever mistreated me in a different light that I am seeing that person.  We are not in agreement because the god force part of me does not love conditionally.   No other gods.

In other words, I cannot set up myself as anything other than a loving being and when I do I am not in alignment with my true self and I feel badly.  Furthermore, how I feel at any given time must matter more to me than anything else because that is my divine guidance.    Feeling as good as I can IS my work and if I allow anything else to become more important it is the same thing as putting other gods before me.  Actually I made that connection myself!  I finally get it.  And I venture Jesus would agree.  “The kingdom of God is within.”

That’s deep enought for one day.  I need a nap!  With Love, Connie

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