April 16th, 2010:  A New Chapter

Does something have to end before something new begins?  I balked at saying something has ended.  Has anything ended?  As I think about it something has ended.  Old perceptions and beliefs about myself have ended…if not ended they are clearly in remission. 

I have decided to know what I know.  I have decided that I am not defected, if that’s a word.  And I’ve decided that I can do this.   I had been operating I’d say for my entire life as if those statements were not true, or that the opposite was true.  That left me with sometime crippling anxiety and a lot of time on the hamster wheel in my brain.

Having accepting new beliefs I’m beginning a new chapter.  I knew this several days ago but was not ready to proclaim it yet.  I needed that truth just to be my own for awhile.  But as I journaled this morning I thought, okay, now that I’m in a new chapter, I’ve made it to San Diego…what’s next?

I had an immediate answer.  Enjoy a much richer being in the now.  I am feeling the joy of being alive and I want to really embrace this way of being.  I want to relax more into my now knowing that the Universe adores me, has my back and that more will be revealed as the time is right.  With each day of feeling good I know more that this is true.  The better it gets the better it gets.

And I get my motorcycle back from its winter storage today or tomorrow.  What a great way to celebrate a new chapter.  Get on that baby and ride!

Have a wonderful day today.  With Love, Connie

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