Vision Keeping

April 10th, 2010:   Feeling Forward

I’ve talked about feeling forward but it is becoming more a part of my daily reality, especially as my energy picks up and I’m looking at more things.

I mentioned awhile ago about going on Match.com.  That is a fun thing and not without its anxieties.  I remind myself of my 25 year old daughter and her involvement with male relationships.   I can get on a hamster wheel of obsessing about this or that.  Having been out of the dating world for over 25 years and coming more into my own spiritually I don’t want to obsess about anything over which I have no control, which is nearly everything.

So, I remind myself that I don’t have any control over outcome and that the only thing that matters is my relationship with me.  That I want to focus upon and then a sense of calm returns.

Feeling forward is about feeling good because I know that what is coming to me is going to be great.  The more I know that the better it is.  Feeling forward is knowing that my future really is vibrational present tense.  That could be a lot to take in.   Everything is vibrational before it becomes physical.  We are vibrational beings.  So as Abraham says (see side panel) the present physical reality is past tense at a Universal perspective.  What is present tense is what is becoming in vibrational form in the Vortex of creation. 

So, I look to the Vortex of my creation, of my future, or I feel my way there and it feels good and sure and abundant.  When I’m feeling forward, I’m clear and positive and interested.  I’m co-creating with Source in an active way when I’m feeling forward.  I’m accelerating the arrival of what is wanted when I’m feeling forward.  And I cannot obsess when I’m feeling forward.

I hope everyone is having a lovely weekend.

With Love, Connie

April 7th, 2010:  It’s Good to Want

Most of us don’t realize what our beliefs are let alone how deeply they are embedded.  I’ve been working on feeling good and feeling good about what I believe is coming for me.  Focus is key.  Focus on feeling good and focus on anything that will put you in the zone of Well Being.  Some days that is easier than others.

Listening to Abraham (see side panel) is soothing to me and many times will give me that boost into the “zone”.  And today I came to a deeper appreciation of a belief I was holding.  Like many of us I came me a “lack” perspective.  In other words a shortage perspective.  There is not enough for everyone, we could run out, we ARE running out…of whatever.  This was reinforced at home from parents who lived through the depression and their reality confirmed this belief.  There just isn’t enough. 

Now an offshoot of this is you might as well not want too much because 1) it just isn’t there for you and (2 having is closely connected with sin in some way and 3) it’s better not to want that to just be disappointed.

I know I’d grown up with that to the point that I just decided it was better not to want much of anything.  It’s good to be appreciated of what I have but don’t push it.  This has been changing as I allow myself to have dreams and feel my life changing.

This morning I realized on a deeper level that it is good to want.  Not is it just good to want but essential to want.  That’s why we came here…to want and to create.  As we want and as we create we expand all that is.  We are on the front edge of expanding the Universe.  Our creating out here on the leading edge of consciousness assures eternity.  We are God Force, Source Energy and we came here to create.

So, our very existence is connected with wanting and creating.  This put me in the zone just thinking about it and when that happened I realized that I had been carrying remnants of  false premises.

I can feel myself relaxing into the goodness of desire, the sacredness, if you will, of wanting and I breathe deeply into that.

Have a great day.  Dream. Desire.  Know its goodness. 

With Love, Connie

April 5th, 2010:  Focus, Focus, Focus

So, I made a decision to feel good or as the Abrahamsters say go to the Vortex.  My daughter said there ought to be a bumper sticker that says “Honk if Your In the Vortex”.  I’m lovin’ it.  From my last Abrahamster cruise we got pins per usual with the Abraham logo on it and now they’ve added a big “V” that goes through the middle of the pin.  Very nice.

In case you’ve never been to the the Abraham-Hicks website, I would strongly recommended it.  There are a lot of video clips on it that are very good as well as a lot of information.  It’s www.abraham-hicks.com.

Now back to the decision.  I knew that after making a decision to stay in the Vortex of Well Being I would need to re new that decision.  Today I realized that takes physical focus.  Mental focus and visual focus.  I’m a bit near sited and I had laser surgery a few years ago so I don’t wear glasses for for near sightedness any more but I do wear reading glasses now.  I’m noticing that my eyes are becoming a bit lazy in that the more I wear reading glasses, the more I need them.  I believe I can practice myself out of wearing them.

Just as I need to practice feeling more positively, I believe I can see things more clearly if I practicing focusing on that level as well.  The more I’m used to feeling well, the more I’ll feel well and the more I’ll figure out just how to find that rabbit hole of feeling good.  I know it’s there and I can just “feel” for it as Abraham says.  You cannot think your way to Well Being.  It’s a feeling job.  I can focus my feelings to the rabbit hole.  I call it that not only because I saw Alice and Wonderland but because I believe there is such a thin veil between what we tend to call reality and the vibrational world of Well Being.  We can just focus, feel, focus, feel, there it is and we’re in.  Then allow that feeling to expand and be. 

I’m going to use my eyes more without glasses purposefully to help me focus.  As all physical problems have their roots in negative energy I expect my early near sightedness had to do with there being things in my life that I just didn’t want to see.  But now I can adjust that energy knowing that nothing I see now can hurt me.  I can relax in the knowing that there is nothing to fear.  Just writing that has helped the focusing process as I stare at the monitor.

I’m beginning to bask in good feeling thoughts as I go to sleep.  It was a suggestion from Abraham.  I did that last night and did not have fear this morning.  I’ll try again tonight.  Focus in feeling good the night before and wake up feeling good.

Good evening my friends.

With Love, Connie

April 3, 2010:  Making New

Quotable quote:  The energy of a solution is different from the energy of the problem.  Oh, how true, how true.  As I think about the energy of a recent decision I’ve made to feel good and, as Abraham (see side panel) would say, “just get into the Vortex”, I feel good.  That feels definitely good.  And allowing myself to be in the Vortex where all solutions lie is freedom.

I anticipated, therefore created by my beliefs, that there would be a pull back to feeling crappy.  It’s become a habit, feeling crappy, especially over the past year.  And frankly I need practice with focusing on feeling good.   And there is nothing wrong with not feeling good because that just creates stronger energy of what is wanted.  Like if you know what you don’t want you know more clearly what you do want. 

So, I’m experiencing some familiar energy of doubt and fear that I won’t get to where I want to go.  But pushing against this feeling doesn’t help, does it.  It just makes it stronger.  Have you ever told yourself to stop thinking a certain thought and what happens…the thought just gets more obsessive.  So I acknowledge my not good feelings as just information that the Source within me does not see me the way I’m seeing me.   You see the Source within me is in the stream or Vortex of loving, creative energy that holds all solutions.  When I see myself as a problem, I’m spit out of the area of solutions.

So how do I get back in to the area of solutions?  Love myself  Ease up on myself.  Listen to my Inner Being telling me I’m doing wonderful and tune into that love that offers solutions.  That love feels so good and so much different from the problem.  I tune into that love and just allow that energy to Be with me and as I do that the solution will be clear.  Feeling good on the way.

Our brains get into the habit of certain neurological chain reactions which produce the chemicals.  In fact these chain reaction producing chemicals can be addictive.  It’s as if we cry out to feel a certain way, the way our bodies can cry out for certain substances which produce certain feelings.  We can be addicted to feelings.

I believe that I’m so in the habit of certain patterns of thinking that changing them, reversing them, developing new patterns of thinking takes strength of will backed by Love and repetition and success of developing different patterns.  It’s hard to think that it would take a lot of repetition to consistently feel good.  It does.  I know this by working with women in the criminal justice system.  Just as they begin doing well they become most susceptible to self sabotage.  Doing well doesn’t feel real and can be scarey.  I get it.

So, I will see myself with much tenderness and love and hold myself firmly and closely to my Source.  I can feel the anxiety when it appears and keep up a new repetition of feeling good and feeling good and feeling good until that part feels more like me than feeling not good.

I know this can happen.  The solution is in the Vortex of creation.  

Happy Easter.  It is a rebirth.  With Love, Connie

April 1st, 2010:  Making the Decision

Two days ago I absolutely felt like crap.  B.by the time I’d reached my therapy appointment that day I was feeling better.  That’s the good news.  The bad news was that after therapy I was REALLY feeling like crap.

So what’s that?  I knew.   Abraham (see side panel) says that our emotions are our guidance telling us if we are on track or not.  If we feel good then all is well.  If we are experiencing negative emotions it means that the Source within us does not see us in that moment the way that our physical self is seeing us. 

I had let something I heard coming from someone else’s mouth dictate my feelings about me.   You see the content isn’t important, the scene isn’t important.   The results are that I allow something outside of me to tell me who I am.  In this case it’s someone close to me.  This is when we are put to the test.  Can we hold our spiritual/emotional ground in love when our addictive chemical patterns want to carry us to somewhere ugly.  I had come to a watershed.  I was absolutely fed up with what I had done to myself.  It was unattractive to say the least and abusive to say the most and I felt DONE with it.  Enough already!

I made a decision yesterday.  I’ve made many decisions before on different levels but this one feels like an absolutely base line decision for me.  I’m going to know what I know about me , own it, and this is the challenging part, stay focused on what I know to be true about me even in the face of my own pull to self sabotage.

Sometimes its so easy to give in to the feelings of self doubt, victimization, whatever.  I’m not doing that any longer.  I know I will have to re decide and re decide and re decide but after awhile I will have a different belief about myself.  I know this because I have done it on other things.  I’ve developed new beliefs that have changed the way I see myself and the world around me. 

So I can make this very pivotal new decision which is a door to freedom.  I alone can decide who I am.  No one else knows me like I know me.  No one else knows my particular reality but me.  No one else knows why I do things the way I do or make the decisions I make but me.

I’m going to know what I know about me and step more fully into that energy.  It is powerful and when I speak of it I feel good and so I know that my Source or my Inner Being is agreeing with me.  Yes.  It’s time. I’m feeling good enough about myself that feeling ugly just doesn’t get it anymore.  Way last year’s news.

It’s a beautiful day here in Milwaukee.  I cannot get my Harley out of it’s winter quarters for two weeks!  I shall survive. 

With Love, Connie