March 21st, 2010:  Post Cruise Texas

I can’t believe I just left the ship yesterday morning.  It took the entire day to arrive in Dallas where I’m stopping off for three days to see my brother and sister-in-law before returning to Milwaukee.  It snowed last night here…about 4 wet inches on the ground.  Just unheard of here but there it was…and I came from the Caribbean for this?  Egads, it’s supposed to be full blown spring here now.

 I swear I was so weeping on the last day of the cruise…and then today as well.  I’ve had post cruise let down before and I hope this is what it is.  It’s evening now and I’m feeling better. 

 Returning to Milwaukee has it’s challenges for me.  I have not returned from vacation before to no job and I’m reminded what I’ve lost.  Buy that loss is receding in the past somewhat.  I can’t feel it so much anymore but what does that leave?  Me and me.

Still I take with me what I’ve learned on the cruise…1)I’m reminding myself that I know in my heart the answer to any question I want to ask or am asking.  I mentioned before but it’s worth repeating for me, many people told me…but you KNOW.  Yes I do know and when I allow myself to own that it does feel good…as in true…the Truth.

 2)  I chose to come here with the emotional apparatus that I have because I chose that contrasting situation from which to create my life.  And in doing this creating I’m taking this physical choice with its challenges and teaming up with Source energy which runs through me and is my life force.  That is the plan and I have done very well so far.

So that leaves me with going home and trusting that all is well and that I will find my way…that more will be revealed as my friend said.  More will be revealed.

I took some sand home with me from our last day at the beach.  This is the finest sand that I’ve ever felt…it’s so fine it feels like powder.  So I patiently stuffed an empty water bottle with this lovely white sand and had it in a carry on bag. 

I really got the attention of airport security.  They had me aside with this impressive testing kit and gloves and swabs and dishes and solutions.  And finally I was pronounced as being a terrorist free zone. 

 Another thing I was really grateful for was that I made it through the flight between Charlotte, NC and Dallas without committing homicide.  After my love fest at sea, there was a woman sitting in front of me…I use this term loosely.  There was so little room in this plane and when she let her seat back her head was practically cradled in my crotch and I couldn’t move.  I wanted to strangle her.  I nearly had a panic attack from feeling so smashed in but I slowed my breathing and believed that she wasn’t deliberately trying to piss me off.  Every time I moved my legs I pushed them as far into her seat as I could hoping she might get the hint…but no.  At least I could be grateful that I had the legs to smash into the seat!

 So, to all my favorite readers…good evening.  Love, Connie

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