March 11, 2010:   Feeling Forward

 Feeling forward is a great new term I learned on the latest Abraham (see panel) recording.  It refers to looking to your dreams and feeling your way there by enjoying the feeling the way that having them makes you feel.  So, knowing that something wonderful is coming my way when I’m lined up I feel great.

 It doesn’t hurt that I’m leaving for my cruise tomorrow morning.  Yes!  I had lunch with a friend today and we practiced my wave from the main deck.  As the ship sails out into the Atlantic on its way to the Caribbean, I’m on the deck waving, take that, bitches…hand slightly cupped, only turning at the wrist.

 Packing was painful, however.  It took me all day Wednesday to pack and at that time I discovered that it was March 10th and I had lost two days.  I realized that my previous entry here the day before was dated March 7th, I think.  Where was I?

 Anyway packing…I had to try everything on before I put it in the suitcase because I’ve expanded in my pain in the past few months.  It just kind of crept on when I wasn’t noticing all of those home made dark chocolate covered caramels going in my mouth every night while I was reading.

 The more clothes I tried on in my skivies the more depressed I became.  I could wear a lot but some were SO not fitting.  I was even sweating…sweat in skivvies when feeling fat anyway is really pathetic.

 Then, the tour de force.   My swimming suit…OMG!!  Really bad.  Body coming out the edges.  No way.  So I said a prayer and hoofed it quickly to TJMAXX down the street.  I was creating a suit in my mind all the way there and guess what!  MANIFESTATION of a Calvin Klein suit ticket priced at $98 and I paid ta-da $20.  Boy do I have it!!

 So tonight I prepare for a 4 a.m. wake up and a flight to Ft. Lauderdale.  I’m taking my laptop and will keep you up on the haps.  I SO couldn’t leave you for 10 days.

 I’m off to see the Wizard…and in this case it is Abraham on the Eurodam in the Caribbean.  I’ll get myself in the hot seat yet.

 With Love and feeling forward, Connie

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