December 15th:  Two days ago I was having an exceedingly bad day and even more frustrating was my seeming inability to not beat up on myself for not being able to pull out of it, just do something for God’s sake.  And all of that is so unattractive.

And then I was thinking well, you create your own reality and if you can’t do any better than this then you’re fucked!

I arrived at my house, home to my husband and 24 year old daughter and went on line to post a blog and noticed I received a comment on a previous blog  from someone I did not know.  That really lifted my spirits and I was very pleased and affirmed that someone had actually found this site out there in cyberspace.  What a gift to me!

Then the three of us went to see Invictus, a movie about Nelson Mandela and the Rugby World Cup series in 1995, I believe.   It is a wonderful movie and extremely uplifting.  It is about your beliefs creating what is wanted.   It is about forgiveness and healing.   It is about a man who knows deeply what it means to be in charge of his own soul.   Just what I needed.

The Universe gave me two special gifts today at a time when I was needing them most and I was reminded of how connected I am to the world around me…intimately connected.  This is a new thing to me having felt so islolated much of the time.  I was reminded that the world around me will give me what I need.  I felt “given to” and was uplifted in that knowing.

Those gifts allowed me to expand into the person that is much more attractive to me, the person that I am becoming.

With Love, Connie

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