Vision Keeping

May 22, 2018

This was just so cool and I have to share. My previous entry
a few days ago was about happiness and why being
happily is so important. In short because of the law of
attraction your current life reflects your current thoughts and
feelings. So wouldn’t it be better to create more happy
rather than anything else? (Read my previous entry for
better background.)

Well, just as I was finishing that entry our door bell rang. My
wonderful furry friend jumped off the chair next to me and
launched into a solo barkathon that might have implicated a
North Korean invasion beginning at our front door so I
thought I’d better answer it.

As I opened the door I noticed two well dressed women
smiling and holding literature in their hands. I immediately
identified “field work” and these 2 Jehovah’s Witnesses had
arrived to save me. I love these people. Truly. And have had
wonderful conversations with them. We introduced
ourselves and one of the ladies launched her agenda with
“Are you happy? Wouldn’t you love to have more
happiness in your life?”

I explained to them that I was just writing about happiness!
And I also was thinking to myself about the wonderful
demonstration of the law of attraction that had just
manifested. Wasn’t I just saying in my writing that being
happy creates more of that? And I do love the Witnesses.
They spread their love in my experience and their
appearance at that moment was just so perfect!

Some people may call this a coincidence. I don’t believe in
coincidence. The Universe is much too precise and elegant
for that. I do believe that we create our own reality by what
we think and what we choose to focus upon.

Feeling Happy

April 30, 2018

There is so much being written about feeling good, happiness, the happiest countries in the world (really?), 100 ways to feel good and on and on.

If I didn’t know better I’d kind of flip it off thinking, well I’ve lived most of my life sometimes up, sometimes down, and I’ve gotten rather used to feeling somewhere in between and that seems to work for me. So what’s the hype? There’s even a psychology of happiness that is gaining recognition.

I think most people, and I was one, felt that life is supposed to be hard, or just that’s the way it is, period. I hear people complaining, even on cruise ships, about what doesn’t feel good as if that is the leveling field for small talk on elevators or conversations in general.

Quantum physics is gaining importance to explain why being happy is a really good thing. I’m not a scientist but I do know that quantum physics explains how the smallest particle of matter is thought. String theory is closely related, and

Let’s just go back to quantum physics and take thought as the smallest particle of matter coupled with the law of attraction. There was a movie made called “What the bleep do we know” which was taken from a book of the same title. In it it explains how our thoughts coupled with the law of attraction actually create our reality. While this idea is not new, science moves VERY slowly because somehow it seems as if in our world EVERYONE has to agree on something before it can become fact. Remember how difficult it was to convince folks the world was not flat? Now try to convince them that they are creating their experience through the thoughts they are choosing to think. OMG! And that word “choosing” can be a hard one to swallow because most of us don’t think we choose our thoughts but that they are somehow just there because of what we observe or are reminders of what we have observed or experienced. But we actually choose what we pay attention to.

Case in point: A few years ago I chose not to watch television news anymore. I remember Bette Midler in an interview around that time saying she didn’t watch the news either because it just made her want to lie down! Bingo. I decided I would feel better if I didn’t watch the news. Why put myself in a downer on purpose? I CHOSE to feel better by not watching.

We make hundreds of decisions every day about what we want to pay attention to and what we pay attention to attracts other similar thoughts and thoughts being basically matter attracts similar people and experiences. Isn’t that mind blowing?!

So, if you are having a grumpy day and are running into disgusting people and fell down the steps and got flipped off in traffic I’m saying that you created that day with the thoughts you were thinking. This is not woo woo stuff, people, this is science.

And that’s the big deal about being happy. Being happy creates the life you would like. Complaining only brings more stuff to complain about. Really.

I guarantee there is more nitty gritty to come!

Wishing you all to pay attention you what makes you feel good so that you can be happy and have the life you want. Deep? Really deep!

April 24, 2018

When I was in my 20’s I knew that I had strong emotions, was intensely sensitive and reactive at times as well even if it was mostly internal. I considered my emotional life a blessing and a curse. When it’s good it was very very good and when it was bad, it was terrible.

I didn’t feel like I had control of my emotions. There was this life inside me that reacted and seemed at times separate from me. With age and experience and through great teachers such as Louise Hay and Abraham along with others, I’ve learned that I can indeed control my emotions and now I understand why I even have them.

Before I talk about why we have emotions I just want to say how we, as the human species have denigrated our emotions, have looked down on them as weak. And what’s more we have assigned them to women by a male dominated society and made half of our population, the weaker sex because we express our emotions.

There is good news in that as women begin to take their rightful place. Yet women are still “looked down upon” for expressing their emotions in public and god forbid a male politician express his. One male democrat running for President “back in the day” lost his bid in the primary when he shed tears over his wife having been the nasty target of some other politician. And god forbid that women shed tears in the workplace. WHAT WOULD PEOPLE THINK. OMG!!

Now here’s my incredible input if I do say so myself. I didn’t make this up. It comes straight from Abraham. We came to be on this planet having been given emotions as a gift, well sort of, from our Higher Power. Because we were never supposed to go this trip alone. It is just too difficult. So we were given emotions as Guidance and a direct connection with our Higher Selves. We were so meant to be happy here and enjoy our experience. When we are happy we are in sync so to speak with our Higher Power and that is pure positive energy so when we hook up with that energy we are feeling really good.

When we’re not feeling good we become pinched off from our Guidance a sort of stick being put in the spokes of our bicycle because that pure positive energy will never bend to be with our fears, doubts, anger. Guidance is pure positive energy and unconditional love. And so when we are in sync with our Higher Power we are connected to all that is and can “hear” our guidance. We can make the right decisions for ourselves, give love to the people around us, give love to ourselves, know instinctively what to do for ourselves.

To really know how absolutely important emotions are to us, to know that our emotions tell us if we are “on track” with our life’s purpose or not, is mind blowing to me. And also so affirming as a woman with plenty emotion. This is such a huge topic and I could go on and on but not at the moment. I need my morning coffee!

April 11, 20

6:24 p.m.

So I just was saying that we can’t blame anyone else for our own feelings. Period. Did I say that?? I did say that and I do believe it. And then I feel at times that I want to do physical damage to my partner or at least dole out a good dose of verbal abuse. Really let him have it!!

Then I take my dog buddy for a walk and can’t stop the tears from flowing because of extreme frustration with him and with myself for being so angry…because I’m supposed to know better, dammit!

And then I swear I heard the words in my head that I need to allow my tears because they are a release and I’m going to need them. And I do believe that those words come from the Higher Self in me finding air time through a crack in my tears.

Interestingly enough I had just asked for “help” from that Higher Self, the Big Me from mini me. And as my spiritual journey has evolved I’ve found that the help is there or eminent.

I need to honor the physical me and get off my own back. So if I can just allow myself to feel what I feel and sort of cover those feelings with a parallel feeling of the Love that is also the Source of my “Beingness”, I can return to a much better place.

And when I say “allow” those nasty feelings I mean let them be with all of the grit that I can draw upon of how I’m feeling. And then after mini me has had her say (and ONLY after she has had her say) I can conjure another vibrational frequency that is the Love of the Universe. Then a sort of alchemy happens where that amazing Love just settles over the self hate and the homicidal feelings as a blanket of comfort and I can feel the anger and sadness sort of melt as the Love becomes more dominant.

I was able to find that feeling of powerful love through meditation when you can find the stillness to let all thought go and then the Energy of Source can surface. It’s not difficult. It’s just takes the knowing that it’s there and practice.

I must say that finding that Love feels rather magical and is well worth the practice of letting go of our busy minds. But once you get a taste of what that Love feels like you will want it again and again. And the door to the reality of a whole non physical universe begins to open. That’s when it gets really juicy.

Next…an easy guide to meditation and resources.

Peace, Connie

I was having a great day today and then I had to deal with a “customer service” person from God knows where and who totally could not understand my situation. I hung up furious and also furious that my perfect day was crapped on. Or was it? I had to back up and focus on knowing what I know.

So,I believe that most of us know intuitively that there is more to life on this planet besides what we can perceive through our senses. I’ve always known that and it had nothing to do with religion. Not that there’s anything wrong with that.

I’ve had the great experience of working with some great teachers mentioned on this website and came to learn what I’ve always known intuitively. Like we are more than our physical bodies. We have what some call an Inner Being or a higher self, Source energy, God, the Great Spirit…whatever. It really doesn’t matter.

What does matter is that when we arrived on planet Earth we have never been alone. Not only that we have an internal guidance system. We were not expected to land here on Earth and just wing it. And what is so absolutely cool is that our guidance system manifests in our emotions. We are meant to be happy and we intuitively know that because it seems wrong if we aren’t happy…like we know that being happy is where we belong. And that is so because our inner beings are pure positive energy as in Love is all you need, as in God is Love, as in the greatest love is inside of you. Thank you, Whitney.

When we are happy we are in sync with the greater part of who we really are…Source Energy. And when we are mad at that creep who cut us off in traffic and then flipped us off we are NOT in sync with our Source or Inner Being. Our Inner Beings will not get mad along with us being pure positive energy. They will not join us and that seeming pinched off ness from our Source feels like mad at the time. Yet, and this is really big, we get pissed off at the other guy when the truth is we pinched our own selves off from our Source of happy. This can be mind blowing in a blaming culture. What if instead of always blaming someone else for what we are feeling we took total responsibility for our feelings. That is hair blowing back mind bending. Yet its true.

So let’s go back to my beginning. I am mostly a happy person and that requires focus. Focus on what feels good because then I’m aligned with Love, with pure positive energy, with my Inner Being. Period. It’s just that simple. And not simple as well because we have been wired differently from the get go.

That’s the point of my writings actually…this wiring thing and how we can create happy lives and get all we want in the process. We so weren’t wired that way.

Stay tuned… Connie

February 6^th,  2011:

I keep thinking about this young man I was listening to on an Abraham (see side panel) CD from their seminar in Kansas City, KS, last September.  When Abraham speaks with audiences, they field questions about anything.  They always say that nothing is off limits so people have the opportunity to go on stage and ask a question and talk directly with infinite intelligence.  I’m not going to go into the story of Jerry and Esther Hicks and their journey with Abraham but it is worth going on their website or YouTube to get more information.

So, anyway, back to the young man on stage.  He could barely get his question out and initially had such a hard time because he was crying and even snorted into the microphone.  The gist of his question was that he knows that his thoughts create his reality but he wrestles with his thoughts so much because he has so many negative feelings about himself and he gets so utterly frustrated with himself because he gets so tangled up with himself and then believes that he will not be able to create anything worthwhile because of his war with himself.  He asked for Abraham’s input.

I so got him.  Before this point in my life I was where he is most of the time and listening to him I felt tears on my face that sprang without my knowing.  I’m sure many felt this way.

Of course Abraham wanted to soothe him into a better feeling place and I certainly wanted to go along for the ride as well.  They told him that he had great desire for one so young as evident in his sensitivity to his feelings and his surroundings.  They told him that his larger self, his Source energy, was much bigger than his struggle with himself and he would go on to create great things for himself.  His job at this point was just trying to relax with himself and know he was on the right track and well ahead of his peers.

Hearing that was very affirming for me.  I could so see myself in this young man.  My 20’s were very difficult because with my very strong emotions I just thought there was something deeply wrong with me.  I wished I had had Abraham telling me that my emotions are my guidance.  Period.  They do not mean anything other than your physical vibrations are not in line with your Source energy vibrations and that causes somewhat of a split in your energy.  Period again.  Instead of feeling the period I built a whole story around my woundedness that was a strong belief for years.

But if Abraham had been there for me in my 20’s I would not have had the life I have had so all is well and I do believe everything is running perfectly.

But hearing Abraham talking to this young man in such a loving reassuring way was also for me.  There were many times, and still are moments, when my doubts rise to the surface and I want to call out and be reassured that I’m not fucking anything up with my feeling of going in circles with one foot nailed to the floor.  And, looking back and seeing my accomplishments despite my belief in my wounded self and not knowing that the wound was self inflicted, only reinforces the knowing of my strength now.

Knowing that my Source and my life movement are so much stronger than my puny, by comparison, mind fucks scratched an itch in me that needed attention.

Thank you, Abraham.

With Love, Connie

January 12^th, 2011:  Nothing is Worth Losing Connection with Source

Imagine sitting in bed in the morning light and looking out the deck doors to the ocean and feeling the hum of the ship engines and the rocking of the sea.  Add a cup of coffee with thick Australian cream and that’s just got to be the best.  Oh, and add feeling in the Vortex or at one with Source energy and we’re ready for take off.,

If there is one thing that has sunk in more deeply on this cruise is that nothing, I mean NOTHING is more important than my own connection to my Source energy which feels wonderful.  It is alignment with my wholeness.  It is what we’re after when we use substances or behaviors to fill a void.  It feels like the high you’ve been looking for and which has been elusive or gone when the drugs wear off or when the purchase is old. 

Abraham (see side panel) calls this feeling being in the Vortex.

And it’s not so difficult to achieve.  It is just practice, really.  We know the feeling.  We just think that the feeling belongs with events outside of us…a birth, a wedding, falling in love.  We have attached those high flying emotions to something that happens to us rather than something that is a natural state of being.

Even saying that this wonderful sense of Being is our natural state probably sounds like snake oil.  Because most of us were trained away from this excitement and feelings of freedom when we were children and by the time we are adults the outside world or what we have come to call “reality” has taken over our ability to connect internally with who we really are.

So, returning to that natural state requires quieting the “reality” around you.  Meditation and breathing are the best ways.  And when you do find yourself feeling really really good just milk it for all it’s worth.  Sit on that good feeling and just enjoy the hell out of it and because of the Law of Attraction you will attract other good feelings.

I’ve skimmed over a lot here to get to my point:  nothing is worth the loss of that internal connection.  To truly live this one must be willing to Be the center of your universe.  Remember when your mother said “the world doesn’t revolve around you.”  Yes, it does!  And that’s not a bad thing because when you are aligned with your Source energy, that means you are aligned with Love and when you are aligned with Love then you are nice to be around.

(Narcissism is not being aligned with Love…it is being aligned with a fear based idea that we really are not seen in a basic sense.)

So, when I feel myself becoming anxious about what I want to do on the ship, I remind myself that nothing trumps me being in alignment and the anxiety goes away.  When I feel some concern emerging that I should be having dinner with friends instead of reading a book I remind myself about my own alignment and the concern evaporates.  And that’s just the small stuff.  It’s also not worrying about your money, your kids, your job…whatever.,

Because if you are in alignment everything you want will come to you in a way that is uniquely perfect to you. 

I’m observing that ride for me and it is spectacular!  It’s why I came.  It’s why we all came.

I remember a bible verse from my early fundamentalist days…”Seek first the kingdom of heaven and all else shall be added unto you.”

 With love from the Tasman Sea, Connie

December 12 2010:  I’m in the Vortex so where’s my stuff?

I’ve been feeling really good lately.  Better and better and consistently good, not the roller coaster of the past.  I’m actually training my mind to stay in the good feeling places…something our school system neglected to teach us.

Abraham (see side panel) says that when we are feeling really good consistently then we can attract that which we are wanting, our dreams can be fulfilled.  So, what’s with that I’ve asked myself?  I haven’t ever felt this good since I was a child…on a good day… and my bank account is fine but not bulging so I can book that camel trek from National Geographic or the around the world cruise from Princess.

I had a “bite” with lauching a new career which is still in the works but no cash flowing…yet.  I’m ever positive and I believe it will happen after I get back from New Zealand.  I guess I did manifest that trip/cruise to New Zealand but I don’t know if that really counts because I already had the cash in my account.  Is that a for real manifestation?  Yes.

So, the BIG dreams have not unfolded but jesus, I’ve only been feeling really great for the past three months.  In divine time I doubt that’s worth talking about.  And then there’s the thing when I wake up in the morning and just bask in this space of utter bliss.  I write, listen to Abraham, drink coffee and look out of my 8th floor windows in awe that I can even do this.  Sit like there was no tomorrow and marinade in these wonderful feelings day after day.  I never thought I could feel this good and that is quite a manifestation as I see it on paper.  Quite something.

And as I think about it, I think that’s worth a few weeks of enjoying before my life gets more busy which it inevitably will.  So I’m enjoying this luxurious time of wallowing in my own manifested good feelings.  In a world where how hard we work and how much money is coming in and what one can measure, that has taken me some time to deem my just plain feeling better than I have in my life something worth some applause.  There was a time in the not so distant past when I considered not being here because I couldn’t find the feelings I’m having regularly now.

Abraham says we want stuff because we believe in the having of it, money, partner, whatever, we will feel better.  But what we really want is to feel love, to be love.  And then the rest will follow.  Well I’m feeling the love and I’ve decided it’s a good place to stop, take a rest, soak it in, expand it to more and more and more.  I can ride a camel but if I’m not feeling joy then what is it worth? 

I can wait for my stuff.  I have joy.  I have the feeling of being connected to the bigger part of me that is Source energy.  I have a LOT!

With love, Connie

October 18, 2010:  You get what you expect

I’ve never been on Map quest.  I know a lot of people use it.  It shouldn’t be that difficult if so many people use it, hey?  But I’m a technophobe…a Boomer.  I’m old on the scene.  I wasn’t born with the genes that allowed my 3 year old daughter to pick up a game boy and begin using it as I was lamely looking at the directions.  She just knew how it worked intuitively.  That’s a generation gap.

Another generation gap was probably that as a child in the late ’50’s I realized that Lassie wasn’t really in the box but some of my elders were wondering how she got in there.

So, I need directions to Evanston, IL and decide to get them from Map quest.  I must have spent a good 30 minutes to no avail…I didn’t use the right address, the thing was too slow, I started over again, I couldn’t get it to work and then I noticed something about signing in and then out of frustration, I signed off and walked away….fuck that shit….blah,blah.

It occurred to me last night that you get what you expect…that is we are vibrational beings and what we receive comes by way of the Law of Attraction…That which is like unto itself is drawn.  Well, I’m not likely to match up well with Map quest if I’m truly believing that I don’t know how to do it, I don’t want to do it and I don’t think I can do it.  Wa-la!  Perfect results.

So today I cleaned up my vibration and began again.  By cleaning up my vibration, I just thought about doing Map quest again and shifted how I felt about it from a negative experience to feeling really good about it and having success with it.

And I did!   We truly are so powerful it blows my mind.  Think of the implications.  Becoming responsible for your personal outcomes is both exciting and a bit scary.  More on that later.

With Love, Connie

September 27th, 2010:  An ah-ha Moment

I’m on my way home…after 21 days away.  To get me across Nebraska and Iowa…I don’t want to offend…but the scenery isn’t quite as attention grabbing as it was in South Dakota, Wyoming and Colorado and Utah…I’m listeninng to The Ladies #1 Dectective Agency.  I’m a real fan.

But I digress…after 4 days camping the the Colorado mountains…or at least in a Colorado meadow in the mountains…I came out strengthened with at least two ah=ha’s.  I meditate daily…twice a day, actually, morning and evening.  It’s a wonderful time of day.  I had heard to “follow the feeling” to the presence of Source and when I was meditating I would tune to a really good feeling and then get a sense of the string of it and think that would lead me to Source.  I did get to feeling better but one evening at my campsite I had a loud thought in my head that the really good feelings actually are Source, not leading me there but good feelings are the presence of Source energy.  Realizing that brought this amazing sort of shock wave through my body.  Knowing that has greatly improved my meditation and rather than push on the good feelings to find something else I’m more able to just allow them and they emerge/expand more clearly.

Another thing I’ve learned, and I’ve learned a lot,  is to really trust the good feelings in my gut as leadership of Source.  If I get a good feeling about getting off the freeway NOW, then I do and I found myself in front of this wonderful B & B last night in Frisco, CO which was perfect.

I had gotten so good at listening to Source and knowing that all is well that the first night I stayed at a Colorado campsite, it rained like hell but I was in my wonder tent and I knew I would be okay.  Even when the rain was smashing into the side of the tent so hard that the side of the tent was bending over my stomach!  I woke the next morning and was bone dry…not a thing wet on the floor of the tent or me or anything in the tent.  And we had three hard inches that night!  I was fine, not freaked like I would have been because I trusted I would be and having a great tent helped!  A Sierra Mountains 3 season tent.  I’m a believer!

For two nights at that campsite I was totally by myself and could have freaked out imagining a serial killer on the loose looking for vulnerable women.  I even thought that this guy circling in his pickup two or three times was checking me out.  Help!  Then I went back to Source and knew I was fine and focussed my thinking.  Even so I kept my Swiss Mountain knife by my bed.  I don’t know what i would have done with it!  Plus the next day I realized that the guy in the pickup was a local rancher rounding up stray cattle who were mooing their heads off.

I’ll be home on the 30th.  I can’t believe I’ve done it!  I’ve toughened up my spirit and I know I can handle all kinds of stuff and focus my feelings when needed and keep trucking…even when it was raining and I had to pee and I couldn’t go outside, I made myself pee in a cup and threw it out under the tent flap.  I grossed myself out.

I’ve developed a strong inner self that feels more confident with myself…not all the time but I realized how far I’ve come since I began writing this last fall and I had to acknowledge that I’ve come a long way.

You’ll be hearing from me back in Milwaukee…I miss my puppy!!!   Love, Connie