May 6, 2010:  The Next Logical Step

Abraham (see side panel) says that when changes come to your life and you are living in the Vortex, they just seem like the next logical step.  Not an action…this herculean effort to produce something…but allowing something, the next logical step to emerge.  I’ve seen the next logical step for me and I’m really pleased.

For so long I couldn’t see the next logical step because I was just trying to stand up again.  To get on my feet, to even want to do a next logical step.  I didn’t feel like doing anything and nothing was emerging on my radar screen.  It was a waiting period.  But just now after the check that wasn’t a check happened (look at previous entry) I see the next logical step taking shape. 

 And it is a “taking shape” rather than an event.  A taking shape.  Going on the road trip to the Grand Canyon has ignited my interest.  I imagine being at the North Rim and maybe camping somewhere, driving through northern New Mexico, walking the streets of Santa Fe, planning what to take, gathering lots of information about what and where to see natures wonders.

At the same time my friend and I continue to meet about putting my creating-your-own-reality curriculum fully on paper.  I’ve been talking about much of it here over the past weeks and months.  A lot of the curriculum is Abraham, some of it is me, some of it is Louise Hay.  It’s a curriculum I began using at my work place with staff and then with consumers.  It was a joy for me to teach.

Then my life changed drastically and I found myself actually needing the very same curriculum to help me create the life I want.  That’s what it is about and now I needed to put my money where my mouth had been…big time.  Well, I’ve been doing it.  That’s largely what the purpose of this website has been….to write about creating my new life.  And it’s coming.

So back to writing the curriculum.  I’ve changed it so much, re thought it and finally I realized that I could not write it like other curriculae.  Abraham says that you cannot download learning, that you learn through experience.  You don’t learn from absorbing data, you learn organically from doing.  That’s the most powerful and important kind of learning.  You can learn how to put a table together by reading instructions but people are a bit more complicated.

I had been planning to write the curriculum in sections oulining what would be “taught” during each of the 8 sessions.  But then it dawned on me that if I were going to write this curriculum with the integrity it deserves that I”m going to write it as I lived it, weaving my own path over the past year with each of the teaching points.   Add some references and worksheets with each chapter and I think it will live.

So, breathing life into my writing as well as breathing life into my traveling has opened up the next moves for me.  New directions are coming from a life that was best described as getting my wind back again.  Now I can begin to set sail.   And as I promised myself, I would not “do” anything that I didn’t feel inspired to do from the inside.  This is not a should or a filling time but a genuine calling from me to me.  And because of that I can trust that it will lead to the next thing and the next thing and the next.  Living life from the heart with joy.  It SO feels good.

With Love, Connie