April 15th, 2010:  Molding the Clay in San Diego

Waking up in the morning is a pleasant experience now.  I remember months and even years when that was not the case.  Waking has run the gamut from being frustrating to frightening.  Now for several days running it has been pleasant and has gone from pleasant to feeling really good after a wonderful relaxing meditation.

Usually when I’ve felt good I have this gnawing feeling that it won’t last and I’ll fall.  That isn’t the case but this morning I wasn’t feeling quite as good as before and it was enough to invite the hamster wheel of doubt to being the squeaky turning.  But I’m glad to report I turned down the invitation.

Instead I decided that I would explore San Diego…or in other words, explore my new arrival point of feeling more solid.  After all we are never finished growing.  We are vibrational beings who are constantly expanding.  So we will eternally have the situation where we feel completion of a creation or of the arrival at a destination only to begin the next journey.

I used to feel an anxiety at the start of the next journey.  The anxiety came, I believe, at knowing I cannot control situations,  even my natural tendency to want to expand and grow.  I can try to shut this down but it will only leave me anxious and angry.  I’ve seen so many older people who are just angry.  It’s their attemps at trying to control the uncontrollable and that can get very frustrating.

So rather than feel anxiety I feel curious and even an excitement.  That came with “taking the bounce” of the contrast this morning.  I was not feeling as good as I had the past few days, saw it as some contrast that causes me to ask for feeling better.  Then took that bounce into feeling better.

You see that if we ask it is always given.  So, if I don’t feel as good as I would like I automatically ask for something better and Source/Universe/God immediately gives us what we want in vibrational form.  Then it’s up to us to be a vibrational match to what we have asked for.  Taking the vibrational bounce is me expanding into what I’ve asked for.

Feeling myself do that…expand into something better… is wonderful.  It’s molding the clay.  It’s why we came here.  You might say, yes, but where’s the stuff, the money the house, the job.  The manifestations will come.  I have no doubt.  They already are coming.  My job is to know that they exist in my vibrational escrow account and I just have to line up my energy to match what I’ve aske for and Law of Attraction will bring it to me.

So, my job is feeling good…feeling as if… 

That’s saying a lot and is essentially a recap of everything I’ve talked about since I began this writing in November.  It’s just so gratifying to finally see more of what I’ve been asking for in ways that are really affirming big time for me.

I take the bounce.  With Love, Connie